Often times before death people lie in a bed of regret and spend the last few hours wishing they could have done more. I refuse to conform to this common idea. When I’m dying I want to regret nothing in my life. I want to spend my last few hours enjoying the time I have left and truly know that I tried to be the best version of myself I could. I want to learn from my mistakes and learn to love myself unconditionally, I want to be selfless, I want to give people my all no matter how little they do for me. I want to hold my head high no matter how many times I fall down, I want to get up and continue to grow despite the circumstances. Before I die I want to be the best version of myself I can be regardless of what that looks like to others.
Before I die I want to prove to myself that money isn’t everything. I want to work a job where I’m doing something I truly enjoy despite the pay. I want to genuinely learn that there’s more happiness in doing something I love everyday than in making money doing something I hate. I want to set my mind to doing something that I enjoy doing everyday because in the end happiness is more valuable than any amount of money. I want to learn that there’s more to life than the material things and that true happiness does not come from having the most money or the nicest things.
Before I die I want to be someone with unconditional self love. I want to look at myself and love every single piece of who I am. I want to love myself in my rawest, purest form regardless of what that looks like to others. I want to learn and understand that my flaws make me unique and for as long as I live there will never be a soul just like mine. I want to be learn to be myself and forget the judgements of others; I want to refuse to conform myself to the so called “normality” of society. I want to refuse to be someone else or hold back how I feel, I want to learn to be myself and embrace all that I am.
Before I die I want to choose happiness. I want to choose to wake up every morning and be happy, I want to learn to be grateful for everything I have, and I want to spend time doing things that I genuinely enjoy no matter what that is. I want to choose to be happy and spend everyday surrounding myself with people and things that help me to do so. I want to look past the negativity in my life and focus on the positive. I want to be thankful for all that I have and all that I am, I want to find happiness in simplicity and learn to love the little things in life.
Before I die I want to know that I did all that I could for my friends, family and myself. I want to remind the people that are important to me that I appreciate them and are grateful for them every single day. I want to hold on to the people that contribute happiness to my life and never let them forget how important they are to me. I want to chose to make them a priority and always be there for them in time of need. I want to learn to support and love all the people in my life unconditionally.
In conclusion, I want to die with no regret. I want to die as someone who knows they chose to make the most of every day, chose to love themselves despite all their flaws, someone who held onto the most important people their life and never let them forget how much they are loved and valued, someone who understands that happiness is worth more than any amount of money, and lastly someone who inspires people to be the best version of themselves, truly themselves in their purest rawest form. At the end of my life I don’t want to regret not telling the people that mean the most to me how much they’re loved and valued. I don’t want to be someone who regrets working my life away in order to fill loneliness with material things. I refuse to be someone who lies on my deathbed and regrets living a life someone else wanted me to be. I will refuse to die as someone who is uncomfortable in my own skin. Instead, I plan to live my life as my truest self. I plan to live a life without regret.